It’s been uncomfortably hot out for this cat and my three rats 😦 Yikes.

Art…. I need to make more art, but I have zero motivation. It’s incredibly hard for me to get motivated about things, because all that happens is I lose interest halfway through and end up jumping to something else. I don’t know how other artists keep their motivation. As soon as something upsets me, everything hits the fan and end up being halted. I wonder if that has any relation to my psychological issues? I’d have the answer, but I’m apparently not messed up enough to warrant a visit to the psychiatrist. I’ve been asking and demanding a psychiatrist, but I’ve officially been denied help twice. They won’t help me until I end up in a hospital bed.

I’m extremely tired. This heat doesn’t let me sleep!


The birds and the bees, a long existing reference to spring love.

Bees may not yet be in this early spring image, but the birds are! All from Love is my scratchboard project inspired by an older news article about a bird couple. The story is sad, but I’ll tell you about it. The female bird was struck by a car. Her cries caught the attention of her lover. When the male seen what had happened to his lover, he screamed and ‘yelled’ in distress, confusion, and agony from the accident. He stayed by her side, hoping she would get up. He even brought her food to encourage her, but she couldn’t get up due to her injuries. The male stayed beside his lover until she passed.

That story tugs at my heart every time I look at this image; it actually makes me sad and sometimes teary eyed. I’d prefer not to keep this piece, as it only saddens me. If this piece sold, I’d be happy to send it off. I’m sure another person could look at this and appreciate its beauty and work, and I did put a lot of work into this piece. I had made this as a sophomore, and I wonder how much difference would show between then and now if I were to make a similar piece. I’m not particularly a fan of working with scratchboard, but this was fun to work on.

Oh my, that little kitty doesn’t seem happy to find a dog looking in the window!

These two cute critters are from my 2011 book Being Different. I wrote and illustrated the book, and it was completed over the span of a semester and an additional month. Originally, I intended it to be 34 pages, but it turned into 36!

I’d really love to get my children’s book printed, but at the moment I’ve barely got money to feed myself. I hope I can someday afford to print at least a few copies of it! I’d tell the story, but I’m not sure that’s a good idea just yet!

Watercolor, Sumi-e ink, pen, and watercolor pencils on illustration board.

Rolling and roiling,
Dark masses charging in the sky
Agony and despair scream as they power forth
Their heartache rumbles the skies
Rattling the vulnerable Earth
Powerful as they are, the dark masses cannot escape
Blood curdling screams tear apart the masses
Ache falls to the ground beneath, pouring, stinging, sideways
Loss rises within the dark masses, its presence deafening
Agony screams
Ache Roars
Despair becomes great
Rocking the atmosphere
Dark masses unleashing their agony, their ache,






Thank you for reading my free form poetry! Along with being an illustrator, I also am a writer. I could choose to minor in English, but unfortunately the money keeps me from it! I hope you enjoyed this, the first of my poems to appear here on WordPress!

This mural took an entire semester to complete, but my mural, lovingly titled Fish of the Setting Sun, was well worth it!

The first three months of the project consisted of:

-Thumbnail sketches (MANY of them)
-Learning to interact with a client on a more professional level
-Learning how to find and price materials and make a “project cost estimation sheet”

This project was a massive one, meant for at least three people to work on. As luck would have it, no one else jumped on board to work on this, so I ended up working on it solo. If it weren’t for the assistance of my professor, and my recruiting a fellow student towards the end of the project to assist me in putting down layers of paint, I wouldn’t have been able to finish this work in a month! Yes, this massive painting was finished within a month. I spent many, many hours in this elevator working on the mural!

I used oil paint for the sky to achieve the soft, comfy feeling of it, and for the waves I used acrylic paint. The contrast between the sky and the water is stunning to me, and I’m so happy that I was able to achieve that look!

(This image is version 1 of the mural. Better images are on the way!)